I guess it's okay to feel how I feel, to do what I do, and to want to do what I do. After all, that's just being me. I do wonder though, if I keep running and running and running...eventually I'll have to stop right? There'll definitely come a time when you feel too exhausted and will stop, or you've finished that particular route... No more paths to go or run. So, okay, maybe I'll just continue until I'm absolutely worn out, weary, and tired to my bones. Because even I can't continue forever. Just like how I got over them and just accepted it after crying and a whole lot of missing, I can and will do it again.. And again. Forever always only feeling the impact at the very last minute and when time is running out. Sigh. 

And that's only if you let me.

Swirling maelstrom of thoughts. As usual. Though it's always probably about nothing and unimportant. As usual. I wish I could stop thinking sometimes. I really should. I don't know how though. Tell me how :( just keep being unable to stop thinking about it or whirling the thoughts around my head that I thought maybe writing something out here would help but then my thoughts are always so silly, meaningless, inconsequential and immaterial that I don't even know what and why I'm thinking about or writing. Ok this hasn't really helped and I don't think anything can help and I don't even know how to get help from this lol but on another note ughhh please may my blocked and runny nose be gone tmr!!!

Expect nothing, appreciate everything. This is truly the credo I should live by and which I should remind myself of all the time. 
So. Appreciate that he doesn't ignore me, well at least and not yet. Because I've heard way too many times about unpleasant cases where either party just disappears or never hears anything at all. 
And, appreciate the bright and bedazzling morning. I'm so glad I decided to turn around and its also immensely thanks to sheer luck that I look around and managed to recognise something and that I decided to double check. :) ;) 

'You don't even look at me'
*baffled, flabbergasted, speechless and absolutely not knowing what to say* '...what?!?!?!'
*awkwardly patting*  'no, you look very handsome today.' *speaking the absolute truth which actually needed some courage to be summoned to say that line.*
*maior eye -rolling and deliberately not looking at me* 
*still speechless and baffled and flabbergasted* -.- sigh. Maybe doing wrong all the time lol sigh.