i am so tired. so freaking tired. and i am so jealous. so jealous. of him, her or what or why or where, i do not know. its most probably a combination of all. ugh. i want to burst into tears right now ughhh.

i mind. i really really need to stop but i still do.

youknowwhat, just. good night. i just want to bury my head and escape and sleep. i don't feel like doing anything at all right now but i don't want to sleep either because i don't like whats going on in my head...just before i go to bed. =.= and i'll still have to wake up and face it anyway. which i don't want to. i dont!!!!!!