all at the wrong time...

ok really wrong time to be blogging right now but i just feel so incomplete.
nothing to do with studies or work or academics though yes those are HIGHLY DEFINITELY INCOMPLETE AND WILL NEVER EVER BE COMPLETE...
though yes, prelims start tomorrow and HENCE, the REALLY WRONG TIME TO BE BLOGGING RIGHT NOW BUT...

dammit.
i hate feelings of incompletion.
not like i am supposed to be included but still.
still.
should've said good night, goodbye, have a safe flight.....etc ....
leaving at 7am tomorrow and probably not ever going to see them again.
i'll miss the laptop, (really soft) bag, guide book....
I don't know why, I don't even know them and yet......
.....
i will still miss them. their presence, their very essence.
maybe so.
or maybe, i'm just too idiotic about all these kinda things.
maybe, its what they stand for and remind me of.
man feel so knotted up right now, and kinda sad.
i know its a globalised world, and people never stay static and they move around all the time.
but.
sigh.


i should just go to bed.
let it go. they weren't even "mine" in the first place, and i guess maybe someday i'll find my own.

and you know, sometimes the things you do, really hurt me through and through. maybe you don't mean it, but still. i mean, come on, someone i barely met being nicer than my own blood?!

so good night....and goodbye.
goodbye from the very depths of my heart.