Sunday, June 08, 2008

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happy hols indeed. happy happy happy. i feel so...(stressed is just an understatement probably. LOL)...

yeah but anyway, i can't seem to really enjoy my hols. everyday i'm just thinking about all the test awaiting for me when i start school and everyday i'm just counting down the time left for me to do my homework and study for the tests. every single day my mind just can't seem to rest.

well maybe it's just that i haven't been utilising my time properly, after all, everyone has 24 hours in a day. but shouldn't holidays be a time to relax and play? as in, yes, i do see all the need for homework and stuff, but...i don't know, i don't feel in the mood to do all of those kind of things when its the HOLIDAYS, mind you.

and this year's just been crazy, i study (i guess), but never seem to get good results. i try my best, but seem to get nowhere. i put in my effort, but it never seems to be enough. WELL...
2 more weeks before the holidays end...and that event is drawing near. i wish it were like at the start of the hols, then it could be long over and done with.

i really hate it that u just abandoned everything and left. everything on my shoulders, yes, thats what u did. i know i can't complain cos its your time, and i'm not exactly blaming u for leaving, but all the apologies, i feel they're so fake. I'M SORRY. i guess i'm not the right one to do it then.

and i miss so many people so much. =( i so wish they were here with me, to understand, and to just keep me company. man, i miss those times we had together, and i wish so much so much that i could go back and be with you all.

well, i can't do anything but just continue to do my best. =D i believe GOD will bless me, and help me through this. anyway, i bet many other people have a tougher life than me, so,

JIA YOU EVERYONE! <3
God bless.

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